Standing in Awe

The three people I have loved the most in this world (not counting my parents) were all born within 24 hours of this moment...

My daughter Alison was born on June 2nd. Three years later in the wee hours of June 3rd, my daughter Breeana was born. My beloved Douglas, was also born on June 2nd.

I find this fascinating, and also heartbreaking tonight as another wave of grief for Douglas moves through. I am letting this wave have its way with me and my misty eyes, hoping it will gracefully fade into gratitude as it has so many times before. 

This life is indeed such a great mystery; unknown and sometimes completely unknowable despite my ever-present wondering and inquiring mind. I have spent a lifetime trying to figure it all out. 

Yet beyond the unknown and uncertain, beyond the surprises and disappointments, there is great trust in the exquisite pattern of life, more interesting and complex than our wee human minds could ever imagine or engineer. So tonight, on the cusp of three precious birthdays, I stand in awe of the vast intelligence that guides and governs our world.

And I bow in gratitude to the vibrant Geminis who have graced my life... past, present and future.

In Gratitude,
Ariana

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